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I have always believed that the Lord puts people in our lives for a reason. We may not understand how friendships come to be, but before we know it, there is someone who you find yourself talking to all the time, about nothing. The Lord has blessed me with such a friend.

God brought us together when she found out she could not have anymore children. Very soon after that, I found out I was pregnant with Will. I remember my heart breaking, all I could think of was her. She's the one who wanted a baby so badly, she's the one this should have happened too. I was afraid to tell her, afraid she'd be upset like I had done it on purpose. More importantly, I was afraid of making her heart hurt more than it already had.


I couldn't have been more wrong. She has been my best supporter and my biggest encourager. I never knew then, how much I would come to need her friendship. There are so many times I will see her holding my precious baby, knowing her heart still longs for one of her own. I find myself praying for a miracle, praying that the Lord would give her the baby she greatly deserves.


I have heard many people say, "Don't drink the water unless you want to get pregnant". I find myself praying that the Lord would let her drink the water! I know that He is the almighty God, maker of heaven and earth. I know that He is capable of opening a women's womb; He did it time and time again in the bible. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. I know all of this in my head, but do I believe it in my heart?

When I pray for things only He can do, dream dreams that only He can accomplish, I hear His soft voice asking, "Who do you say that I am? Do you believe I can answer your prayer no matter how unbelievable or impossible it may seem?" Some days its easier to believe than others. In the back of my mind I will hear myself wondering, "What if He says no?" and I will lose my faith that He can say yes.


I have seen His power and I have seen Him do so many impossible things in my life, I pray He will do the impossible in hers.

"Jesus replied,"I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt,...you can say to this mountain, 'Go, throw your self into the sea,' and it will be done. If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."
~Matthew 21:21-22